20

well wow i am officially 20 today this is crazy to think i made it this far... I look back on all the things i have gone through and accomplished and it amazes me. One thing I know is that i have turned into one strong young lady after all the years of messing up then doing right. There is nothing I would change about my life because I know all the things I have been through is what makes me who i am today. I especially would never regret meeting Mias dad because even though we are not talking I am blessed with the most amazing and beautiful daughter I could ever have and she is what keeps me going and that is why she is the name i am getting tattooed on me first because even though she is only 1 1/2 she saved me.. She gave me the chance to start a new life even though I let her down at one point of time looking at her face and knoowing that she is the only one she has to count on made me change my whole perspective of life and thinking wow i am a teenager but I am the one that had sex knowing i could get pregnant and decided to keep her so it's my responsibility to be there for her and grow up and she got that through to me. When I look at her i see my guardian angel in her because she is always there by my side giving me the guidance that I need to become the mother I need to be for her because now i havve to be the mother and the father so I will have to teach her everything and be there for her through all the I hate you mom to the first heart brake to sending her off to college or whatever she decides to to. I just want her to be successful and I kknow that me growig up and being a ro model to her finally will help her do. Just because I have a kid does not mean I can't do what i wanna do in life. I am going to go to college to be a cosmetologist and be successful at it because I want the best for me and my daughter and no offense to my mom but i don't want to live here forever lol. But even though it took 20 years for me to discover all the things I needed to it's never to late to finish what should been a long time ago. i can't wait for the day that my daughter looks at me and tells me I am the best mother in the world and i can tell her al I have been through and hopefully get her to stay away from it at least try. well thats all i have so excited for this year my 20th year on this earth it's gonna be rockin!!