I always wondered where i was gonna end up after i hit rock bottom. Got into gang members, went to jail, got my daughter taken and so on... but now i know new friends, my daughter, my family back and happy with God helping me every step of the way! I look back and think who was that girl and what happened to her to make her be so unhappy.. and the answer is nothing she was just stupid and got to caught up in the wrong things. Most people that know me knows what i am talking about but those who dont can take a wild guess and probably be right. I am so happy that i have over come getting my daughter back and having good friends because of treatment and high school friends that I got back after they could trust me again and the fact that I can live in my parents house again knowing that once i get a job and stable that I can move out and know i am not going to screw up again. Mostly i am happy because i am over a year sober and that took a lot of hard work cause only God knows I have been wanting to pickk up a drink or go buy something but I have the power and strength to contain myself from it and really i dont want it cause now I know is it worth getting my daughter taken from me.. NO its not so why do it?? My birthday is in a few days and i am extremely excited for what ts gonna bring me I have so many goals that i want to accomplish and I know i will be able to. i went to the movies yesterday with a special friend and his mother and her boyfriend and it was really awesome I never wanted to go see the hunger games but it was actually really good! It was also nice to escape fro life and just have some ME time for once. I really have not gotten that since I gave Zoey up for adoption really i have not gotten out the house so it was really good for me to go hang out and have a good time even if it was only a movie lol. well i am tired so i am gonna go to sleep goodnight and God bless!! I can actually say i am enjoying life for once!
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