well today was quite a day woke up at around 8:30 to my almost 2 year old daughter poking my eye saying sleep ma sleep ma lol. finally got outta bed and upstairs at 9 and immediately put mia in the high chair and gave her juice and a rice krispy treat. I looked at my mom and said hey there is cereal in it lol. after that i got mia dressed and i threw clothes around finding some jeans that i could not breath in to put on and went to JC penny's with my mom and my neice anneshia. I got some pretty cute outfits for mia. I was so close to getting me these adorable purple pumas that would have been great for running because unfortunately bella my yellow lab golden retriever mi decided to put a small hole in my nce addidas that my dad got for my birthday last year.. :( maybe i can get someone to get me those pumas for my birthday because they were also $55 dollars and i am a cheapo!! well after that we took the girls to mc donalds and got then chicken nuggets of course and i got my fatty #2 large size which is two hamburgers and a large fry lol mia ate all her nuggets of course and went down for a nap. at that point of time is when i relax and take a bath to soak my soreness down there from Zoey and take a shower and get ready for church. i have no idea how mia sleeps through it cause there i am singing in the bathtub and shower and probably being loud as ever but she sleeps like a rock! after that my mom and i and anneshia and mia of course get into the car and go to church. I of course have to get my coffee and chocolate muffin at church. The service was really good but the cover song made me tear up it was strong enough by stacie orrico an amazing song and the lyrics are about how strong girl is because of God and what he has done for her and thank you fr letting me start again and giving me the chance over and over to be a better person because he is so loving. the song brought tears to mmy eyes cause i feel like that song has to do with all the struggles i have gone through making the wrong decisions and getting my daughter taken then getting her back 9 months later than giving Zoey to a good family and God giving me the love and strength to start over again and help me to be strong enough to handle any situation and hard ball that might be thrown at me because he is amazing i mean he is God! after church i picked mia up from the nursery and i love her smiling face when she sees me come around the corner and she is standing right at the door waiting for me even though i got distracted by the huge booger that was hanging out her nose ewwwww!!! but that was alright i still love her. we all packeed up in the car and went to fazolis for diner with the chadwicks, the most amazing second family i could ever ask for. Mia got picked up my ashley davis from there because the davis love mia so much i gave in and let them keep her for the night. We spent from 7- 9 just sitting there talking with the chadwicks at fazolis and it was grand i needed it so much cause they are people i can talk to about anything but then i came home watched khloe and lamar and now i am sitting here writing probably boring most of you but i just want to say that just getting out has helped my baby blues be distracted for a while i mean i kinda sat down at church and staring into space thinking about what zoey might be doing but i came back into reality and just thinking positive and staying busy really helps i filled out a couple job apps today and ill start doing that more often cause i love working! but i probably should go to bed so i can hopefully get up and clean before mia gets here at 11 am we will see if that happens lol well goodnight and God bless all of you that read my blog every day i hope maybe i can impact soe young moms to get out there and be strong and happy without a man but with God and love!!
!day by day!
loving one daughter close everyday and another from a far everyday!